The Scar.

Pinkish wounds on her body,

3 years on

have still not healed.

Tomorrow Evil comes,

and tears the skin apart.

She screams to stop,

but evil keeps going on.

Sadistic him, he enjoys the sight

of her crying, fighting back.

Memories haunt her;

Of her children running around helpless,

Of her brave ones falling down one by one,

Of her scared ones shivering at the sight they see.

Of Evil's minions walking with glee,

killing her kids in a spree,

taking over her with such ease,

Helpless, she goes numb...

3 years on,

she remembers it all,

hasn't forgotten any of the wrongs.

She mourns for her babies who died for her.

She makes up her mind,

wipes away her tears,

unsheathes her sword,

and strikes it in his heart.

Evil falls down.

Revenge achieved.

But her heart's still weeping.....

Confronting fears, happiness, puppies etc...

     This morning I said to myself "I would have a happy day".. Nothing happened in the afternoon. But if I count the 2 Vampire Diaries Episodes that I watched, yeah, it was fun. Did nothing out of schedule like all past days of this week.
     In the evening, I went down for a walk taking my ear-phones with me at around 8:30.. I took one round around the building and the familiar sense of something being there in the dark lawn scared me. (I watch and read alot of fiction which adds to my already over-imaginative mind, which in turn cooks up even more fictitious stories). So lately its Vampire Diaries which I 've been following intently. It has all the suspense and thrills- with the sudden dha-dham music booming in your ears through your ear-phones when Damon Salvatore jumps down on unsuspecting, pretty girls!- and then they show his full face on screen (again with dha-dham music making u jump in your seat) eyes red, with his face going black, blood of stupid girls on his mouth.. yeah all of that! So I'm walking, with music in my ears (Linkin Park :) ) and I hear scurrying or something in garden. (even with loud music in my ears) and I run away from there. Next round I again come back to the place, walking warily, looking in the garden hoping I don't see some person in white or black (Though it would be interesting if someone in bright orange was there under the dead Mango tree.. Nah it would still scare the hell out of me!). The third round I decide to go in. (Risky.. ooooohhh!). So I go in and sit on this bench and comfort myself saying "Be Strong. Fight your fear" I close my eyes as even more challenge (because closing eyes will create images of Ghosts, or Vampires. Its not that I wouldn't love to see Ian Somerhalder aka Damon.. But not in such a dark place.). I open my eyes and after a while I'm at ease. Sitting comfortably. Then I put even more difficult task ahead of me- to walk in the garden itself, bare feet! (And let me tell you the left side of the garden from where i sat, there's dense grass there, so more the spook (if there is such a word as spook. I think there is .....)) Anyway I'm trying to get up, but can't. But then the song 'The Messenger' which I'm listening comes to the line 'your instincts telling you to run.. Listen to your heart..' which is when i stand up quick.. I walk, slowly towards the left, very cautious, stopping after every small step thinking something moved (and my mind at that moment gives me knowledge of creatures like snakes, frogs, poisonous things living in grass) But I walk. Then I see a grass hopper and shriek and turn around and walk fast to the other side.. This side has sparse grass so no problem. By now I have some confidence and I go back to the left side again.. At last I reach the end, and I touch the last bench with my foot. i'm happy by this time. I know its a Nothing. Nothing worth feeling proud of. But its a huge thing for me, to take one step to conquering my fear of the dark, the unknown. I was so happy that I laughed out loud. And smiled. My smile must've crossed the boundaries of eyes too.. I was proud of myself.
*****
Another thing I did was to take the decision that I'll take up Psychology next year. I was in this dilemma of choosing Psycho or English Literature. Psychology it is. Coz it will take me beyond national boundaries, help me (mostly) realize my many many dreams (including of meeting my soul-mate. I know its too much romantic fiction :D ).
Psychology it is. Now I have to study too much for the next sem. coz the first one was horrible. Tough job ahead. I hope I don't quit. Or change my mind.
*****
I went ahead and brought a small Parle-G pack for the two puppies in my building. On the way back I saw a one stray searching for food. Lucky boy got 2 biscuits  :).Now the puppies back home were so happy, and so hungry too... the gobbled up the biscuits so fast.. and then they were all over me, jumping. Fighting the other when it got a pet from me.. Cute things. I don't know why but there's something about dogs. They make you feel good about yourself. Like You are something in this world. And they have such beautiful eyes.
I had to scold them to let me go. :)
*****
Its wonderful how God made this world. I mean so ingenious of putting water in a hard coconut. Who would've thought that? Not me!
That makes you Awesome! Love you!
*****
So what I learned today?
1. Take Risks, small, one step at a time. It'll help you grow, banish your fear, make you feel good about yourself.
2. Think about the other being on this earth.
3. Take time and appreciate the natural things. Even if they are normal in your life.
*****
I should stop believing that wishing my happiness will bring bad consequences. I deserve to be happy. I do! I do! I do!
*****
Well that's it. I know I've written after a long time. This lengthy thing makes up for it I guess.
And Thanks to an FB frnd who read my blog, said he got inspired to make up his own! Awesome. And thank you for reminding me unconsciously that I have a blog which I should update! :)

Cheers!
Live and Let Live! 

Me.

I am not drop dead gorgeous
But I don't crack a mirror.
I am practical, and reason every damn thing
But then I also have mindless, teenage dreams.
I can be the nastiest critic.
But I have the ability to motivate even a stranger.
I can be the strongest microscope and find the minutest fault in me,
but when it comes to others, I need a pair of eyes which can see.
Its hard for me to hate people,
even after they've hurt me,
I just can't.
But yeah, nasty thoughts of getting revenge do come naturally. :D

I love myself too much, but then I even hate myself to the core.
I fight, get angry and swear to not melt and give in.
But by morning, I'm as if it never happened.
Which is really irritating, as I should stay my stand..
I consider myself average in everything,
which I am.
I am one confused soul!
I think I might win every prize out there in being confused. Or maybe not :-\
I want to fall in Love, hopelessly, and have that silly feeling.
But then my mind backtracks and gives me quesy thoughts about commitment.
And I feel happy being single and not being loyal.
And yeah. I always refer to my mind as an individual person.

I am not at all patient.
Even a minute seems like eternity to me.
I really don't understand why and how can anyone love me!
Seriously dude, look at me!
When I'm happy I dance as if in a Ganpati Visarjan,
When I sing, I imagine myself on stage with LP (much to the irritation of my Mummy)
I get such joy when a thought in my head makes a rhyme,
It motivates me to get my diary and pen and write,
which happened even this time.

Concisely,
I am not the person I was,
and not the person I am going to be.

But right now,
I am just me.
And I have no idea what that means..

Iridescent Music Video Review

Linkin Park- Iridescent




Linkin Park
Linkin Park's single 'Iridescent' featured on Transformers: Dark Of The Moon
Album: A Thousand Suns


     Its Linkin Park guys. Words aren't enough to write of their might in making music and awesome videos to accompany them. Hell! They might even make their own Transformers movie which will surely go a hit.
     Awesome video as always! The diamond geometric pattern used in earlier videos, Burning in the Skies and Waiting for the End, of A Thousand Suns Album can be seen here too. Its kind of like a trademark for this album. A treat for Transformers fans, by appearance by The Optimus Prime (01:13) and Bumblebee (01:26) and some other guy whom I don't knw.
     Humans, characterised by LP members, have turned into Androids. (Clever! Esp as this is Transformers 3 official song) So we see Mike, Chester nd the rest with shiny eyes (not like Vampires please!). Robotic eyes and mannerisms. At the start it is also shown that Humans have been blinded of their senses, a hand coming to catch them, as if all of us have been robbed of our human-ness, forced to follow the Authority. Another very interesting  thing is the portrayal of 'The Last Supper' in this video.
     We get to see a bit of inner mechanisms of a Cybertronian warrior through the eyes (at this part a Transformers fan would go "woah man!"), and Transformers coming out of land which I guess is Moon!

Best Moments:
 01:13- Optimus Prime!!
 01:25- the LP cast in The Last Supper setting
 02:40- the music picks up pace and grabs attention from here
 02:58- a crash on your senses! Typical, awesome LP music here! The drums coming down
                                  hugely accompanied by the Guitar!

Pure Awesomeness!!

LP rocks!

Transformers releasing on 1st July, 2011 in India!
Watch it!
                                                                          
                       

A peek in my head.....

As i sat in the share Auto towards station today,

my mind started its wander,

which is ,,ganz normal''

as a Deutsch would say.

I thought about the gloomy cloudy weather

in the middle of May,

the increase in the petrol prices,

which is not here to stay,

as it'll increase even more any day.

I also wondered that there are so many synonyms for 

'to think' in Deutsch.

Ic finde, ich glaube, ich denke, ich meine..

they would say.

My over-imaginative-darling-of-a-mind

then thinks of the Inflation.

How for todays Rs.5 share Auto,

tomorrow Rs.20 i'll pay!

"Aye mai/ didi dus rupayee de na.."

will the poor lad in the train say!

"Darling, you think too much!"

I think myself say.

I also think its getting an overdose

of rhymes ending with -ay.

I spare you folks the rhymes! 

Go get lost!

Do I hear you'll scream Hurray?

And then my mind freezes to a stop

as a cutie passes by.

And my mind goes "Hey..."

Suddenly.....

Suddenly, life doesn't seem so bad at all,

After the terrible storm came the sun so warm,

I'm soaked in it..

Ahh! it feels so calm..

It feels so nice,

to wake up to a new morning now,

And I did hear the sparrow chirp at 5 o'clock.

I got up and kneeled beside the window,

and rested my head on my palm,

I smiled- I don't know why or how?

I just smiled and then I laughed

coz there was no reason to smile at all..

And then i laughed some more..

coz for long I hadn't laughed at all..

The morning was cold with that slight streak of sun,

A perfect blend of both,

which made me go "wow!"

I raised my hands and touched nothing,

And then I touched my face..

I'm alive!

I seem to forget that.

Inside me is a heart beating, a brain thinking,

A life living...

And suddenly,

I feel like celebrating...!! :) 

Mobiles!

     In the era of social networking humans have lost their ability to communicate live. It is a growing concern that we cannot easily strike a conversation with the person sitting next to us in public transport, or in a new college. People are always immersed in their mobiles which, today, give the opportunity to have Internet on the go which 'has brought the world closer' (i know!) but it hinders the natural process a person makes friends....
     It is tough today to gauge what a person is thinking just coz of that small communication cum gaming cum camera cum app supporting cum complete attention attracting device in his or her hand! "Is he/shy?", "Is he/she not interested in me?", "Is he/she snobbish?", "What is he/she thinking?"and "I'm gonna stamp his mobile to pieces!" People get engaged on their phones when they are travelling than do things like smile at the person sitting next to you in train (pretty tough na!), or ponder over things, read a book. (Oh! they can do that on their "book reader app"!) But the feel of a book in your hand ahh.. nothing can beat that! It sucks to read an ebook. You don't get the fun and comfort which you get from a real book.
     Facebook. The online portal where you can make "Friends"! It is a like a wow status if you have a long friend list. It doesn't matter if you ever talk to some (read many) of them.. Quantity matters not quality. And according to my personal experience, the friends you actually make on facebook are not true. There's no caring, understanding, support that you get from them. But this is not the same for all coz one of my friends (real friend) found her best friend online..
*****
Summing up, just talk to people, it might just make their day to know that they have someone who cares...

The Blood Check-Up

     It is not a fun thing to go for blood check up. I did it this morning. And the entire process irritated me big time.Its not that I'm scared of needles but I need someone to be there with me when they poke me. But I made my father come with me saying that I'm scared. Maybe I was scared because I've done this just once before.  I don't know.
     As a child I used to get very afraid of injections. I used to lock myself up in the bathroom for like an hour and get out eventually when my parents used to get tired of persuading me that it won't hurt and give up. I've must've missed important shots because of this. No one in my house has any idea of whether i have completed the regular shots. (Its funny for me even though its dangerous!) I hate the smell of spirit, though its a nice smell. Its reminds me of our previous family Doctor who had this cabin. People were taken there to give injections. So when he used to tell my Mom to take me to that room. Bam! My tears would start like flash flood- complete with a high decibel scream which the patients waiting outside could hear too. Another thing that initiated my tears would be that pressure cooker in which he used to sterilize his needles! I used to start "Nahi.. nahi.. (sob)" (I'm chuckling a great deal as I am typing this. Memories!) I have ran from the Doctor too; lots of times; till my house and then scream and shout at my parents for doing this to me. That they are bad. That I would die (yes! I was hyper back the. Still am. But I don't threaten my parents by saying forbidden things like dying and all). That doctor must've had a jolly, funny time in his boring, routine life coz of me! hehehhe..
     Back to present, this diagnostic centre opens at 8am! So stay hungry till that time if you want to go for Blood test. Other centres open by 7:30 am. So we had to wait for 10 minutes till that lady came at 8:05. Then she did her billing and all. And finally she asked me to sit on that chair in the inside room. I went and sat. And looked around the room (I have a habit of doing this as I am not a patient person. I can't wait). There was this big machine, a bed, lights, a chair (on which I sat). That's it. The Lady started getting the things required. The needle (I checked that it was packed), a half- sized test-tube and she went out. Again one test-tube and I was laughing in my mind. Then she brought another one. A thought occured in my mind that will she poke me 3 times? I laughed at my stupidity. I was smiling huge. I was also cursing at that Lady in my mind coz she was taking so much time which further elevated my mood. My Dad was looking at me and laughing at my reaction too. I was thinking "Come on Lady! Poke me already!" Waiting kills! She then took my hands and felt my vein. I looked down and -nothing. I couldn't see my vein today! She then strapped me and told me to clench my fists and not to move or loosen my grip or else my vein will something something (I don't remember. Din't pay much attention to her). But its  a bad thing to say that. Thank you for scaring me a bit! I had a mental image that I move as she pokes me and that something- something happens and then she's poking me again and again trying to find my vein. Surprisingly I laughed at this thought (mentally). I must've looked as if I was having a nice time, like being in a spa or something. Then came the spirit (ugh!) It still gives me creeps (Its interesting how with just that smell I'm thrown back to that doctor's clinic, and his pressure cooker!) So finally she poked the needle (Thank God!) and took out my blood and put it into those 3 test-tubes and I was finally able to get out of that disgusting environment!
     Good riddance! Now I just hope everything's fine with me. No problems. Please God...

"Oh God! What the heck is this?!!"

     I finally decided to see the new 'Dum Maaro Dum' film's song promo featuring Deepika Padukone just to see what's the hype about, why the news channels have termed it as 'hot video' and applauded Deepika for being the usual 'hot and sexy'..
     This was my reaction,
Eyes wide, shocked and my mouth resembling as if I had 'kaarita' (the one which we squish by our toe during Diwali symbolizing Sri. Krishna defeating Narkasur).. yes! that was my reaction..
     This song is - to be described in simple words- FALTU (not that film, ofcourse). Deepika looks like a hippie first and then a junglee in those rags when she starts doing those jerky movements. And what's with the song?! The singer's voice is hoarse and light years away from being musical for God's sake! She-is-screaming! And "Akkad Bakkad bumbey bo?!" Why have all the songwriters attempted suicide that they've copy-pasted a classic old song with some changes- to make it trendy (ooh wow!)- leading to disastrous results? Oh I get it now! The makers of the film haven't got innovative, original ideas so they picked up an old, evergreen, beautiful film and decided to make it again, so why should the music producers attempt something new! We are a family afterall!
     Sorry folks! i couldn't make myself (force myself) to watch more than 1 minute of Deepika doing hooga-booga! And come on Deepika! I loved you even though you suck big time in acting! But this?! I can't advise you anything except that you just sit in front of your gigantic Plasma TV in that cute Nescafe outfit, have the coffee too if you want, make yourself comfy and with an honest, open mind watch this nonsense (Try darling!)
     And then I'd really love to listen to your views regarding it....

A request to those in love.....

     'People change when they fall in love'- well, this is a line which is applied to people in love ( we'll call them PIL henceforth). The listening to romantic songs, reading sloppy romantic books, being that happy person, who dances and sings in joy from the movies.. ugh!
     But the 'change' I am talking about is the way these PIL start behaving with their closest friends. I mean, okay, i understand that you are in love, that he/she is now your life, and you need to spend time with the boy/ girl of your dreams etc etc. But you don't have to spend every waking hour of your 'busy' lives talking with just them! What about your friends? The people who were there for you when you Lover didn't even exist in your life! And now you forget them? The people who helped you get to that boy or girl. Selfish. These PIL haven't got time for their friends, as they are continuously 24*7 messaging, talking to their better halves with those awkward nicknames at the end. You don't have time to check out about your friend's life, their problems (yes! P-not-IL DO have problems too!) and then you blame them for not being in touch. You egocentric people!
     The fact is that these people don't realise the pain these Friends go through when they are alone and wish to talk to you, need your opinion regarding something (without that meaningless mock followed by more meaningless laughter by your better half who's also on the line! "yes I support my love even when he/she is downright stupid!"). They don't get time to talk to you alone coz you are obviously with him/her and they feel guilty coz they think they barged into you two and back out, sacrificing themselves and you don't even look! The friends learn to live without those jerks, turning to some other stranger in hope that he/ she would take your place of BestFriend and end up getting their hearts broken. They keep going through the memories of fun you'll had together. They get jealous, because they know that they have been replaced. Friends can't even complain you know- coz they are supposed to shut their mouths, live in the unhappiness and at the same time be extremely happy for the joyful, in-love couple... :(
     Don't forget your friends when you fall in love. Please. Its a cruel, bad, terrible thing to do. Just be there for them as they were and always will for you.
     To make it simple, consider it as give and take....
     It is your moral obligation to give this time...
     

Burning in the Skies Music Video Review

Burning in the Skies

Linkin Park
Burning In The Skies International Music Video
Album: A Thousand Suns.


 Different people shown in the video, going through variety of emotions..from the happiness, innocence of the child; the fun of the group of friends, the sadness of the man who has lost this lover, the two lovers in the car.. to the Girl in the bathroom going through depression.. This Song is the perfect score for this video.. It does actually relate to the emotions of people in the video.  The video, right from the beginning, is arresting. The songs gradually builds up and so does the video.

There is this scene of the girl in the bathroom screaming in agony and immediately after that is the scene of the child with the Tiger mask (02:14). Its hugely contrasting in emotions, but the result is good.

   As the song builds up, the breath comes faster and just stops as Chester sings, "I'm swimming in the sun..." and then your breath picks up its pace again..

It is this uniqueness of Linkin Park; in their music; in their videos.. they try out new things, always improvising themselves, which makes them a stand out different from the rest..

LP band members with their instruments shown intelligently and beautifully in slow motion and diamond-like-shine which is also used in their earlier video "Waiting for the End" of the same album.

The songs gives a sense of Euphoria and Elation to Linkin Park lovers..

Best moments in the video: actually the songs goes for great after  02:14. But some stood out..

Phoenix Farrell on Guitar (03:31)

Mike Shinoda on his Guitar. His face concentrated on the music he's producing through his Guitar blows my mind (03:37)

The Man jumping off from the house (03:42)

The end part where the girl falls down with the chair..

and Epic moment, The fish bowl smashing on the ground and the water floating in the air. Slow Mo does make it too awesome!

This video is worth more than what it is.

I'll rate 8/10.

Awesome 04:16 minutes of your life..

Go watch it!

-Prachi.N

The Monster...

I sit at the edge of the cliff,

my coat flapping noisily.

I sense the wind on my skin,

its sweaty and dusty.

I look at my precious Ruby,

The sun shimmering the stone in its hilt.

I feel the wound in my chest, and the blood.

My hair touch the ground,

they're messy...

Enough!

Its time to end this!

My eyes open,

they're green and gleaming.

A cruel laugh passes my lips

showing my fangs.

You had dared to stand up against me!

You dared to cross paths with me!

Filthy Low Life!

The monster is now angry!

I get up, turn around 

and walk towards you.

My lips curl to one side,

as your's quiver.

I look at you angling my head..

With one swift act,

and I thrust my sword!

The monster screams in agony!

And I fall down..

Death finally...

My day...

       Its been soo long since I wrote my last blog..
Well, I'll write what I did today. So I went to my German classes in the morning. It was fun. We had a group activity after such a long time. There's this girl, we always get into the same group somehow. I don't understand why.. It happens like always! But I like it. She's nice and fun to be with. She's cute..She's really looks delicate. As if she'll break. But she's damn cutee.. Perfect features. Long, shiny hair.. Again, cute.. :).
    Yeah, I observe people alot. Currently I'm observing this guy who's in my college. Its a fun thing to observe people. How they walk? The way they talk? the way their eyes move, their body language.. It tells so much about them.. I'm really curious to know that guy.. want to know him..

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     India won! Yay! the happiness on Sachin's face..! wow! The Legend! I and my family just adore him!
"Sachin Is Cricket ...Cricket Is Sachin"
Mumbai Indians Rock too!!

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   Well, I'm bored  to continue.. So I'll just stop here.. I can't think anything else.. Writers block..

So Bye ppl!
World Peace!
Cheers to life!
Enjoy!
PLP